We Have a Problem

You see, I'm just now really understanding that I am about to have a baby. I'm not bloated, and I'm not carrying around an alien parasite. I am literally, any day now, about to birth a child. Don't get me wrong, I'm excited, but the fact that it is almost "go-time" has me pretty spooked.

Yesterday I heard Rodney Atkins' "I've Been Watching You"- I'm pretty sure for the first time this pregnancy, definitely the first time since we found out we're having a boy. At first I cracked up visualizing the early lyrics about spilt "orange drink"...and then the tears came. If you're familiar with the lyrics to the song, you can understand.

I guess my eye-opener came as we started to convert the third bedroom/office/David's room into the nursery. With contractions becoming more frequent and stronger- there's no denying what my body is getting ready for. I'm starting to think in terms of what life will be like with Cody joining the family. Our new daily routine and all that comes with having a newborn- lot's of changes!

Another reaon I've been in denial about what's coming is that it conicides with David switching to the night-shift which is 6PM to 6AM. When he is on this schedule we hardly see him because our schedules are complete opposites. He gets home from work when we are leaving for the day and by the time we get home, David is already gone. Even on his days off we don't go to bed together, we don't eat at the same times and needless to say I don't handle being without him very well. And now I won't just be trying to take care of Emma and myself. Ugh, I still can't wrap my head around it. I understand that it comes with the job- but I still cannot wait for the day when an opportunity for David to be an investigator and work M-F 8-5 is more of a possibility.